Now, pharmacy most of my blog posts are strictly nerd or fandom related, and usually I spend a good 500-1000 words being silly and crazy and talking about awesome fandom stuff.
Today’s blog post is going to be a little different, a little more personal and a lot more me.
DON’T LEAVE! Hear me out:
I know it’s not nerd, but if you follow this blog, I hope that you have at least some attachment to me, whatanerdgirlsays. So i hope that you can hear me out and enjoy this post, even if its not what I usually write.
In the past few months, I’ve been dealing with a lot…most of it stress. I’ve been in a job that I absolutely hated, I was working 40 or more hours a week, I wasn’t seeing my friends or my family or my boyfriend, I had no time to write or read, my grades were falling and I was gaining weight like crazy. I was downright miserable.
But, I don’t know, one day, I just woke up and decided, enough was enough. I’m only twenty-four years old and now is the time to live life.
So, first, I started this blog. And I can’t even begin to tell you how incredibly happy this blog makes me. It makes me happier than I’ve been in awhile. I love writing it, I LOVE hearing feedback from you guys. I’m seriously starting to think of creating whatanerdgirlsays stickers or buttons or bracelets or something because I am so insanely attached to this blog. Its something that I’ve seriously enjoyed doing because it’s so me. I love to write and I love all things nerd. So thank you for reading this blog and giving me a reason to keep writing it.
Secondly, after being miserable all summer, working an insane amount of hours and not being able to actually enjoy my summer, I quit my job. That’s right, I quit. I realized that in a few years, when I finally graduate college, I’m going to be working a 40+ hour week for the rest of my life…and until then, I need to worry less about work and more about me. So I’m done and I quit. I do not currently have a job, but I am looking (if you have any suggestions, I’m all ears) and I’m looking for something with less hours, so that I can pay my bills (which aren’t a lot) and I can still enjoy my life.
Then I decided it was time to live out my dreams.
Okay, that probably sounded pretty corny. It’s so true though!
Instead of focusing all my time and energy on a job that I hated, I’m focusing on the things that I want to focus on.
Like spending more time with my family and my friends and my boyfriend.
Like putting way more focus on school! I know that the biggest thing that is going to help me in life, with becoming a teacher, and even with becoming a writer, is to finish school and to finish my education and work has been holding me back from that for far too long.
Like finally coming to terms with who I am and what I look like. I’m a nerd, and I’ve found myself an awesome group of nerd friends and I’ve got a good family and a great boyfriend. And even though there are days when I look in the mirror and am unhappy with what I see, I have more and more days where I’m accepting how I look and I’m happy that I’m the way I am.
And doing what I love most: writing. And I’m doing two things with my writing. One is this blog. I want more time to devote to this blog.
My second thing with my writing is to finish my second novel. I’ve been working on it for about a year and a half and honestly, I’ve been stuck for ages. I haven’t had the time to sit there and think about my main characters and where I want them to go and what I want them to do. I haven’t had the time to write. And I want to focus on writing more than anything because it is my dream job.
And I want to get my first novel published. Another Chance for Summer was started when I was 19 and finished when I was about 21 or 22. Its currently published through Kindle Direct Publishing, and I’ve mostly gotten good responses from it. Hey, you can’t please everyone!
And of course, I’ve sent out about a million manuscripts and letters to different publishers. And of course, I’ve got a million no’s.
Though that’s extremely discouraging and disappointing, I’m trying my super very best not to let it get me down. I know that Meg Cabot was rejected a million times, I know that J.K. Rowling (all hail the Queen!) was shot down before little ol Bloomsbury took it on. I know that even the best have gotten rejected at times.
So, I’m taking matters into my own hands. I’m not going to sit around any longer and just wait for things to happen and wait for my dreams to come true.
I’m going out there and getting things done! I’v decided that I’m going to self-publish Another Chance For Summer. And it’s not cheap. So I’m looking to save some money and I’m starting a Kickstarter for the project to get YOUR help in making this possible. My project isn’t up and running quite yet but once it is, I’ll post about it!
So I’m making changes in my life and I’m finally doing what I want to do rather than what is expected of me. And I’m trying to live my life the way I want to live it: with the people I love and doing the things that I love. I’m so proud of myself for coming to these realizations and for making the moves to make my life better and to make my dreams come true!
But I can’t take all the credit for that. I have to throw a shout-out to my friend Tony, who runs his own website, facebook page and video blog on his own life changes. He tried to get onto the show, The Biggest Loser, made it so far and so close and just didn’t quite make it. But instead of letting it get him down, he’s been losing weight on his own and making his own changes, like quitting his job and getting a job that fits his dreams. His video blog is super fun to watch it and the moves he’s been making and the life that he’s urging himself to live is a serious inspiration to me and it shows me that you CAN do it, even when you think you can’t.
So I’m sorry for the super long post and I hope that you enjoyed getting to know me a bit more. I’ll have more information on my Kickstarter project to get Another Chance for Summer published in a few days, I hope, and, of course, I’ll share it will all of you lovely people. Thanks, as always, for reading and I LOVE LOVE LOVE hearing back from you!
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