Music Monday – “Nightmare” by Set It Off

“Nightmare” by Set It Off

My very first book is releasing tomorrow, The Awakened. I am so insanely excited and anxious and nervous and excited about this. This is literally every single dream come true right now and I can’t wait to celebrate with you guys tomorrow. I had to share this with you guys for the Music Monday because it had SUCH a huge influence on this novel and it helped me get the inspiration to finish it! I like to call this song the unofficial theme song of The Awakened so I hope you enjoy listening to this. 

They’re coming, viagra dosage creeping from the corner
And all I know is that I don’t feel safe
I feel the tapping on my shoulder
I turn around in an alarming state
But am I loosing my mind?
I really think so
Not a creature in sight
But what you don’t know is that

My breathing gets faster
And so does my heartbeat
I wish this was over
I wish that this was a dream but

I created a monster, store a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I’m out on my own
Oh I’m so scared
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
Nowhere to go, I’m not on my own
My mind impaired to wake me from my nightmare

Wait, something doesn’t feel right (feel right)
No, something seems wrong (wrong)
And I’ve been feeling this way (oh that’s too bad), for far too long
As my vision gets blurred, my skin’s getting colder
Appearing young, while I’m growing older
I collapse to the floor and scream:
“Can anybody save me from myself?”

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I’m out on my own
Oh I’m so scared (oh, oh I’m so scared)
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
Nowhere to go, I’m not on my own
My mind impaired to wake me from my nightmare

Walking to the ledge, I find myself looking down
Frozen still with fear, now I’m plunging to the ground
If only I knew how to fly, then I could convince myself
This isn’t my time to die
Instead I’m rocketing faster and faster
I dive, fall to the floor
And when my body crashes to the pavement
I’m right back where I was before

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I’m out on my own
Oh I’m so scared

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I’m out on my own
Oh I’m so scared, no, no
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
Nowhere to go, I’m not on my own
My mind impaired to wake me from my nightmare

(I’m so scared) Awake me from my nightmare

Find Set It Off

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Tuesday Top Ten: Songs that Are Stuck In My Head!

I’m really excited to do this post. One, viagra sale I said I would post more than just books on this blog. And two, visit music has been really huge for me the past few months. I mean, viagra don’t get me wrong. Music has always been incredibly important to me. But lately, its even more. Every moment that I start to feel sad or down or discouraged, I immediately put on my iPod and I feel much better.

So I decided I would share my top ten songs of the moment with you guys. They aren’t in any particular order or anything, its just all the songs that I literally can’t get out of my head. I hope you can check them out and I hope you can share some of your favorite songs with me!

Click on the song title for the YouTube video and click the band name to check out their website, and enjoy some lyrics as well!

The Langdon House” by Issues 

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Did I fail to mention, it’s all part of my imagination
I could actually pick and choose my loose ends
And tie a knot, but all I do is
Run and hide, it’ll get ya boy
Run and hide, all I need is a friend
My whole life has been a war, so I battle myself until I
Run and hide

Bleak December” by Set it Off

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In that bleak December,
You’re just too cold,
But I need the answer,
Before you’d fold,
You would hold your cards inside your chest,
I think I drove too far,
For that bleak December and how full of shit you are.

Rainy Girl” by Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness

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Rainy girl
I can’t wait to meet you
And I can’t wait to hear your name
And sing it to the skies above

Remembering Sunday” by All Time Low

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Forgive me, I’m trying to find
My calling, I’m calling at night
I don’t mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl?
She’s been running through my dreams
And it’s driving me crazy, it seems
I’m gonna ask her to marry me

Sad Ghost” by Issues

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Why do I do the things that I do
And they blind you
Yet you are the only one who can see what I’ve done

Guess I’ll never know what I meant to you
This year’s been lonely but at least it’s through
I’ll write a letter to my former self
Dear sad ghost, why’d you put your heart on the shelf

Same Old War” by Our Last Night

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Should I run away, and change my name?
or Should I, stay and fight through the night, and never close my eyes?
I’ll never close my eyes!

Seven Years” by Saosin

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That mistake was gold
I know that without you
is something that I could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on

I’ve Never Felt This Way Before” by Our Last Night 

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Feet on the ground, I was lost, now I’m found
I took cover from the rain, ‘cause it was pouring down
You held me back, and now I’m on the right track
You couldn’t stop me if you wanted, ‘cause I’m never coming back

The Haunting” by Set It Off

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All I could find was an acoustic video, but check out this song. Literally, I can’t handle how much I love this song.

No one will love you like I did, will treat you like I did
So go on, wear that scarlet letter
No one will love you like I did, will you fuck you like I did
So good luck finding something better

Sidewalks” by Story of the Year 

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Out on the front porch,
watching the cars as they go by
(Eighteen blue, twenty one grey)
Looking ahead for the first time that we could drive,
Out on our own,
To speed away

From the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.

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What are some of the songs you can’t get out of your head right now? Share them in the comments and link them so I can listen too!

Music Monday: “The Haunting” by Set It Off

New feature. Music has been very very important to me in my life, viagra but especially during the rough times. Some of you guys know that I’ve been in a very rough time lately so I want to share music. Each Monday I’ll share a song that I’ve been listening to. It could be because of my mood that week or it might be connected to editing The Awakened or working on the new novel for NaNoWriMo, buy more about or that sort of thing.

So here’s the first week of Music Monday

Set It Off – The Haunting 

“Come on in, find boy,” said the skeletons sitting by her closet door
Dirty secrets, happy memories and broken hearts across the floor
I was knocked out, heels over head
So you dragged me by my feet to a ghost town, where you buried me
No wonder no one heard my screams

Love’s so alive, but it died in it’s sleep
And now that it’s dead, I live in your head and I will haunt your fucking dreams

No one will love you like I did, will treat you like I did
So go on, wear that scarlet letter
No one will love you like I did, will touch you like I did
So good luck finding something better

Run away, boy, if you couldn’t tell, baby’s got a thirst for blood
A subtle system, breaking melodies, craving bullets from her gun
So I tripped, stayed, follow every word, little spirals in their eyes
Catch a lover, turn an enemy just to watch them burn alive

No one will love you like I did, will treat you like I did
So go on, wear that scarlet letter
No one will love you like I did, will touch you like I did
So good luck finding something better

Someday you may find that picture perfect guy
And I’ll chase my words with poison
Until that day arrives, I’m sending to the sky
Fill your boy with only lies, oh

No one will love you like I did, will treat you like I did
So go on, wear that scarlet letter
No one will love you like I did, will touch you like I did
So good luck finding something better

No one will love you like I did, will treat you like I did
So go on, wear that scarlet letter
No one will love you like I did, will you fuck you like I did
So good luck finding something better

Find Set It Off

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NaNoWriMo-The Reawakened Playlist!

Hey ya’ll! How’s it going? We’re nearing closer and closer to the end of November, tadalafil which means that we’re heading closer to the end of NaNoWriMo.

Now, mind no matter what your goals are, you’re a winner! Because setting the goal out to write a novel, and doing the hard work for it? Its an incredibly daunting task and I commend each and every one of you who decides to do it!

And if you don’t finish, its okay!

But keep writing :) NaNoWriMo is only one month, and I want to see some finished novels from all of you!

Now, let’s see, what is today’s post? Oh yes! MUSIC! I love music! In high school, music was my LIFE. I was so passionate about music, it was insane. I’ve fallen a little bit out of it, because I focus more on keeping up with all the books and the book world, but I still love music.

And music really helps me to write. I know there are some authors who listen to music and there are some authors who need silence, but I definitely need noise. I write with the TV on, but mostly I write with music.

I’ve noticed that a lot of authors do playlists for their novels, and I realized I’ve never done that before. I just put on whatever I feel like listening to, but I decided to change it a bit for The Reawakened.

So that’s what this post is. I’ll be posting the songs I’ve been listening to like crazy, in order to help me write the novel.

You may want to pay attention a little bit too! Since you guys can’t actually read The Reawakened, you can get a little sneak peek of it by paying attention to these songs!

So here is my The Reawakened playlist!

Also, if you click the song title, it will take you to the song on YouTube for you to listen to!

Novel Theme Song: 

Nightmare by Set It Off

They’re coming, creeping from the corner

And all I know is that I don’t feel safe
I feel the tapping on my shoulder
I turn around in an alarming state
But am I loosing my mind?
I really think so
Not a creature in sight
But what you don’t know is that

My breathing gets faster
And so does my heartbeat
I wish this was over
I wish that this was a dream

The Rest of The Playlist

Sidewalks by Story of the Year

From the sidewalks, 
Running away from the streets we knew,
Side walks, 
Like the time we thought was made for you

All of the days have passed us by, 
All of the sun is gone…away

Partners in Crime by Set It Off

You’ll never take us alive
We swore that death will do us part
They’ll call our crimes a work of art

This tale of reckless love
living a life of crime on the run
A brush to a gun
To paint these states green and red 

Zzzz by The Cab

I’m high and dry, and kicked to the ground
I’m lost, and I’ll never be found

Singing myself to sleep 
and you’re still my favorite melody
It’s been three weeks
How long can his go on?
Singing myself to sleep
You’re haunting every memory 

Distance Disturbs Me by Set It Off

Separated by a scream,
its just a bittersweet success with a dash of failure
I’m hanging by a thread, intentions cut to shreds
I’m starting to lose my grip so 
Someone please distract me, I need a new obsession
Am I just going crazy?
I’ll never learn my lesson because

I would kill to be a mile away
or feel the breath you’ll take
But fate won’t let me

Swallow the Knife by Story of the Year

So let’s make this night be our best mistake
So let’s take the time to wipe the blood away
Now our hands our tied
and our world is caving in

Now our hands are tied
and the problems lie within
So we pray for night
to start over again 

Just One Yesterday by Fall Out Boy 

If heaven’s grief brings hell’s rain
Then I’d trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday

I wanted this song so bad for City of Bones. I really want it in City of Ashes or City of Glass. Let’s do this.

Monsters by I Am King 

And there’s something behind the clouds
that we can’t see
All things that once had meaning drag behind me
We’ve been living a lie
We’ve been living a lie
A masquerade that will end in destruction
You’ve been living a lie
You’re not all what you pretend to be

Get down on your knees
and we see the darkness and the light
Entwine, as the end of the world
becomes so clear to me 

It’s Over When It’s Over by Falling In Reverse

Take it back, take it back, my friend, 
All the things that you said about the end. 
This is it, this is me telling you it ain’t over til it’s over

Death Valley by Fall Out Boy 

We love a lot 
So we only lose a little
But we are alive
we are alive 

We’re gonna die
It’s just a matter of time
Hard times come, Good times go
I’m either gone in an instant
or here til the bitter end
I never know

In Dreams by Like Moths to Flames 

I’ve been asleep for too long
In a life that’s not my own
Never wanted to feel alone 

Come wake me up
I’ve been asleep for too long
Never wanted to feel alone
Lost myself
Slow to love
So cold

We watch the world turn
But never stop to think about who we are
Take me back to the start
Mend all the pieces that fell apart 

Breathe by Sienna Skies 

There comes a time when we will choose
A time in life which we’re confused
this feeling we will share exists
It sometimes translates with a kiss
The floor is ours
Let’s not waste any time now
Or we’ll regret everything 

Nothing Like Today by Divided by Friday 

Take me back to when I had it all
Before I let my feelings fall
‘Cause lately I’ve been hating who I am
I took for granted what I had
and watched it wash away
But tonight, I’ll let it out
Tonight, will be nothing like today

No Control by Set It Off 

Fall to my knees, God I beg you please
Show me just an inch of mercy
help me, help me, I’m doing all I can
Pretend I’m unaffected, but their pain became my present 

Swear this isn’t what I wanted
God, this house is haunted
The way that this could, if things were a melody
And after all of this we’ve been through
I wish we could switch shoes
This life ain’t fair for us all

My walls are built, and on display
I drown in guilt, due to dismay
Maybe someday I can see how this has shaped me
Bite my tongue, with swelling lungs
I gasp for air and let this go

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I hope you enjoyed listening to some of the music that has been inspiring to me!

What are some songs or some bands that help you when you are writing? Share in the comments!

Getting Over My Writer’s Block

So I’ve had two novels in my head, treatment both of them bursting to come out and yet, approved none of them could actually get out on the page.

It was incredibly frustrating.

The first one was about a girl living in a baseball obsessed town. She grows up with the love of baseball, page until one day, something changes and baseball isn’t the same anymore. The novel was going to go back and forth between the present and the past, eventually ending at what happened, and why her love of the sport changed. I still want to do this, because I’m passionate about the story and passionate about the sport of baseball and its a story that I really want to tell, but it just wasn’t flowing the way I wanted it to.

Then I was also working on something that could best be described as a zombie novel but its not quite what you think. Its about a girl  named Katy, who is living in New York when a virus hits, and it wipes out huge chunks of the population before anyone can figure out what is. Then suddenly the bodies of all the victims disappear, and the world starts to panic. Before you know it, the bodies are reanimated, and they hunger for human flesh. But they aren’t like normal zombies: they’re incredibly fast and intelligent, and there are too many to get rid of. The government decides to bomb the major cities, to get rid of the problem once and for all and Katy goes on the run with her dad, and the only boy she’s ever loved and hated at the same time.

Two great ideas right there, if I say so myself.

But NOTHING was working. I’d get on my computer and just stare at the screen. I honestly couldn’t do anything. I would try typing things but it just wasn’t happening. I was incredibly frustrated. I didn’t even feel like it was writer’s block. It was all in my head but I couldn’t get it out on paper.

And two things have really helped me.

First off, I was at the Los Angeles Teen Book Fest last weekend, and that was SO helpful. Meeting all these authors and talking to them, and hearing their stories of writing and how they tackle writing. One thing that really stuck out to me was something that fantasy writer, Cornelia Funke said…she writes all her novels in notebooks! And that SO stood out to me. I used to write all my novels out in notebooks before I had my laptop and I thought, well, maybe I should give it a shot.

And let me tell you, it has totally worked!

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I went out and bought a notebook and I’ve been writing my novel, the sort-of zombie novel, in it ever since, and I honestly can’t stop writing. I’m on a roll and it feels really good. After feeling like you’re failing in the world of writing for so long, it felt good to just write. I also took advice from the other authors at the event, and have just been writing, not really focused on structure or any of that yet. When I focus on that, I lose the story and I get all stressed out about whether my chapters are long enough and that sort of thing. When I’m in my notebook, I just write, and its been awesome.

Then last night, I got another spark of inspiration. I was at a concert for one of my favorite bands, Story of the Year, who I haven’t seen in concert in about 8 years. It was such an amazing show, and I’m all bruised up and sore and EXHAUSTED from it. But it was fun. I discovered a new band (to me) last night though, a band called Set It Off. And right before they played a song, the lead singer shared some awesomeness with us.

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His name is Cody and he had a lot to share. He talked about how he dropped out of college to pursue music, and that people didn’t always believe in him, and they didn’t believe that he could do what he wanted with music but that he kept doing it anyway. He was encouraging everyone to follow their dreams, no matter what people said, and that even if you fail, at least you tried, you tried to accomplish something that was important to you.

Then they played this song: Dreamcatcher, which you can listen to on YouTube here.

Now, I’m not saying that you should drop out of college. I’m not saying you should go to college either. That’s kind of a person-to-person basis there and I wouldn’t presume to tell anyone what to do in regards to their education.

But I really appreciated that attitude, that idea that no matter how crazy it sounds, or what people tell you, you should try anyway. I focus most of my energy on this blog and on my novel, not school and not work. Because THIS is my passion and my dream. And sure, maybe I’m going to fail. Maybe I won’t accomplish anything at all, but this is what makes me happy and I’m going to keep trying.

So I thought it was cool that he basically pulled the sort of thoughts I’ve been having in my own mind and it really made me want to yell out loud. Like, YES! YES, EXACTLY. Pursue your dreams, and stop listening to what everyone else says. The only person that matters is yourself!

So that was super awesome too. That has given me a huge spark of motivation and inspiration as well, and I feel like I could just keep writing.

So the whole point of this post is to say: that when you’re feeling like you can’t write (or whatever it is that is YOUR thing), you just have to find that motivation and sometimes it can come from the most random of places. I’m grateful for the amazing things I’ve been able to do this year, and the motivation that I know have in me.

Now I gotta get back to writing BUT I’ll leave you with a nice little quote from the novel I’m working on now. No guarantee that this will make into the final novel, but hey, you can get an idea of what to expect in the future!

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Happy Reading and Writing everyone!