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Music Monday: “Can’t Save Myself” by As It Is

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“Can’t Save Myself” by As It Is 

I can’t help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself
‘Cause I swear that this is hell
The way I desperately try to save myself
‘Cause I can’t save myself
A single breath (in empty lungs)
That’s all I got left (gasping for air)
And a bad idea branded in my brain I can’t seem to shake
Another day (in tired skin)
I shed and fray (far from desire)
‘Til all I am is textbook misery and my own mistakes
And as I’ve aged the only thing I think has changed
Is that the demons have moved from under my bed
Into the inner depths of my head
I can’t escape the ugly things my mind creates
I speculate that they’ll stay with my ’til the grave
In broken bones (a half-hearted smile)
I feel at home (I’m proud of nothing)
I tend to get attached so quick to all I’ve ever known
But I don’t seem to know a single fucking thing that can save me
I’m my own worst enemy
Is there any hope for me?
I’m the boy who chose not to grow up and now I’m unprepared for anything
Now I’m scared and I’m cold and alone because the world grew up without me
(Is there any hope for me?)

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Music Monday: “Hallelujah” by Panic! at the Disco

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“Hallelujah” by Panic! at the Disco 

my life started the day i got caught
under the covers
with second hand lovers
oh tied up in pretty young things
in a state of emergency
who was i trying to be
then the time for being sad is over
and you miss em like you miss no other
and being blue is better than being over it

all you sinners stand up sing hallelujah
show praise with your body stand up sing hallelujah
if you can’t stop shaking lean back let it move right through ya
say your prayers
say your prayers
say your prayers

i was drunk and it didn’t mean a thing
stop thinking about
the bullets from my mouth
i love the things you hate about yourself
just finished a daydream
who were you trying to be
then the time for being sad is over
and you miss em like you miss no other
and being blue is better than being over it

No one wants you when you have no heart and
I’m sitting pretty in my brand new scars and
You’ll never know if you don’t ever try again
So let’s try
Let’s try
Let’s try

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Music Monday: “Horoscopes” by As It Is

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“Horoscopes” by As It Is 

There’s no god if this is all there is for me, viagra
A temper and conceptions that I’m lonely.

When death comes, I’ll be ready,
But I’ll waste my life preparing.
There’s so much more to life than breathing.

I see life through a dog’s eyes,
A world in black and white,
A world that would so happily forget me,

I’m faithless I’m shameless

I just wanna believe in something,
But I think that horoscopes are bullshit,
I just wanna believe in something,
Anything at all, yeah,

I’m faithless I’m shameless

I make terrible decisions,
and I pay for them in the fear that keeps my eyes glued to the ceiling.

If I drown, will you drown with me?
‘Cause I’d hate to leave you lonely
In a world that would so happily forget me

I’m faithless I’m shameless

I just wanna believe in something,
But I think that horoscopes are bullshit,
I just wanna believe in something,
Anything at all, yeah,

All great men die young,
Just bodies in boxes or dust in porcelain and,
Once my friends are gone,
I’ll remember when we held the world with our fingers.

All great men die young,
Just bodies in boxes or dust in porcelain.
All great men die young,
And I’m so fucking scared to outlive all I’ve ever known.

I just wanna believe in something…

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Book Review: Tonight the Streets Are Ours (ARC) by Leila Sales

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23310761This review is based on an advanced reader’s copy of the novel obtained through snail mail at the permission of Fierce Reads, viagra and Macmillan Teen. This is in no way had an effect on the integrity of my review. Please note that published novel will differ from this ARC.

Genre: 

Young Adult, abortion Contemporary, prostate Romance

Pages: 

342 pages

Part of a Series?:

Standalone Novel

Release Date: 

September 15th, 2015

You Can Find the Book At:

GoodReads

Barnes and Noble

Book Depository

iBooks

Author Website

GoodReads Summary: 

Seventeen-year-old Arden Huntley is recklessly loyal. Taking care of her loved ones is what gives Arden purpose in her life and makes her feel like she matters. But she’s tired of being loyal to people who don’t appreciate her—including her needy best friend and her absent mom.

Arden finds comfort in a blog she stumbles upon called “Tonight the Streets Are Ours,” the musings of a young New York City writer named Peter. When Peter is dumped by the girlfriend he blogs about, Arden decides to take a road trip to see him.

During one crazy night out in NYC filled with parties, dancing, and music—the type of night when anything can happen, and nearly everything does—Arden discovers that Peter isn’t exactly who she thought he was. And maybe she isn’t exactly who she thought she was, either.

My Review:

I am not entirely sure what I expected of this book. I know when I read the description, I needed it in my life because it sounded so good and I made sure to add it to my request list when it came time for me to request my Macmillan titles. It just had a great feel to it and I needed to read it.

That being said, again, it wasn’t what I expected but I liked it. You come to expect something in particular when it comes to a YA novel and this definitely was different than what I am used to, for sure. I loved each and every one of the characters, even the ones that surprise you and end up being different than what you had expected. I think that sometimes you can get in a rut of finding incredibly predictable books and that’s how Leila Sales blew my mind. I didn’t expect this sort of ending, or really this sort of book, at all.

And I think that’s what makes it so good! Life is unexpected and unpredictable and all over the place and so is Arden’s life. It takes place over a short amount of time, but you can see where she goes from having everything perfect, planned out, but only on paper, until she discovers this blog and she wants so much more, and she becomes obsessed with a different life from her own. She goes in search of this blogger and what she finds is just so much different from what she expected and its surprised the hell out of me. But I adore the way the story takes place and the effect it has on Arden and her story.

I’m really excited for this book to be a part of the MacTeen family. Leila Sales wrote a seriously good book here and I think its really going to be a hit with YA readers. Contemporary is SO huge right now and the fact that this one is a little off the beaten path and has surprises all over the place will really make it a favorite, easily!

Rating: 

4 out of 5 Stars

Music Monday: “If I Die” by Something Corporate

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“If I Die” by Something Corporate

I may have a slight obsession with Something Corporate. Side note: I was AT this concert. When I was 15 years old. 12 years ago. OMG

A train crashed
And everything slows down
I was wishing I could get out of this town
These dreams we’ve had
Have never made you cry
And I am not a twinkle in your eye
But I’ve got to get out of here
Cuz you drive me up the wall
I’ve got to get out of here
Cuz I can’t stand to fall

And If I die
see you won’t be so close to me
And I won’t be the one
Who sticks around
If I’m awake
see you won’t go to sleep, viagra sale I promise
And I won’t be the one
Who lets you down

Tailgates, long talks
And your superficial friends
Shiny, silver Fords
That lead us to dead ends
And I said do you lick these salty wounds
That you, yourself condone
I sit, wait, and I’m all alone
But I can’t go home
‘Cause you’re my home

If I die
see you won’t be so close to me
And I won’t be the one
Who sticks around
If I’m awake
see you won’t go to sleep, I promise
And I won’t be the one
Who lets you down
No, I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

Tell me where you are tonight
And is everything alright?
Do you remember what I said,
While he’s sleeping in your bed?
tell me now you Smile hard
cuz i don’t smile much so far
And is he everything you need?
Is he everything I couldn’t be?
Does he make everything match better?
Bring you all the shiny weather that you want
And is he everything
everything I’m not

And If I die
You won’t be so close to me
And I won’t be the one
Who sticks around
If I’m awake
see you won’t go to sleep, I promise
And I won’t be the one
Who lets you down
no, I won’t let you down
no, I won’t let you down
I won’t let you down
I won’t let you down

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Something Corporate is no longer an active band and have not been active since the mid 2000s. Most of these links go to the lead singer’s social medias, as Andrew McMahon is still VERY active!

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Music Monday: “Comeback Kid” by Against the Current

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“Comeback Kid” by Against the Current

You got this subtle kind of way of making everything turn grey
Like a bottle that runs dry before you’ve even had a drink
Do you think what you do just might fix the bad in you?
Well, you’re wrong this time around

And oh, oh, oh, oh, you know you gave me something to believe in
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you hide behind these battle lines

[Chorus:]
I’m gonna be a comeback kid
And I want to find the words I need to say
Yeah, I’m gonna survive with my head held high
And finally walk away
I’m gonna be a comeback kid
And I want to be the one that’s not afraid
To jump from every sinking ship ‘cause I’m done
Waiting to be saved

You got this subtle kind of way about you that pulls me under but I won’t drown
It’s gonna take a whole lot more than that to ever bring me down
I promise that I’ll be back and I’ll be better than before
What you broke down I’ll build back up, ‘cause I don’t need you anymore

And oh, oh, oh, oh, you know you gave me something to believe in
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you hide behind these battle lines
And oh, oh, oh, oh, you know you gave me something to believe in
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you hide behind these battle lines

[Chorus:]
I’m gonna be a comeback kid
And I want to find the words I need to say
Yeah, I’m gonna survive with my head held high
And finally walk away
I’m gonna be a comeback kid
And I want to be the one that’s not afraid
To jump from every sinking ship ‘cause I’m done
Waiting to be saved

Do you think what you do just might fix the bad in you?
Well, you’re wrong this time around

And oh, oh, oh, oh, you know you gave me something to believe in
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you hide behind these battle lines

[Chorus:]
I’m gonna be a comeback kid
And I want to find the words I need to say
Yeah, I’m gonna survive with my head held high
And finally walk away
I’m gonna be a comeback kid
And I want to be the one that’s not afraid
To jump from every sinking ship ‘cause I’m done
Waiting to be saved

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