Last night was the fall season finale of Doctor Who, Angels Take Manhattan, until it returns in December for the Christmas special. This was the last episode for Amy Pond and Rory Williams.

In all these interviews, Matt Smith and Karen Gillan and Arthur Darvill and Steven Moffat have been saying its a tearjerker and that it was gonna be a total downer. I had heard that for months. That coupled with the fact that it involved the Weeping Angels should’ve given me some idea of what this episode was going to be like.

I wasn’t prepared at all.

Damn you, Steven Moffat, damn you.

In the most wonderful, heartbreaking way possible.

First off, there was the fact that it involved the Weeping Angels. There are so many villians in the world of Doctor Who: the Atraxi, the Daleks, the Master, the Silence, the Cybermen, etc, etc. but one of the scariest ones to me are those damn Angels. I can’t look at a statue without shuddering now. There’s something very creepy about them. They’re so silent, they make no noises and they move so silently. You don’t want to look but you can’t take your eyes off of them. AND they added little baby angels to this episode. Those little giggling things freaked the hell out of me.

I was actually really glad River Song came back. For awhile there, I just couldn’t stand her. Seriously. Every time she came on screen, I wanted to throw my pillow at my TV. I didn’t, of course, because I love my TV but you know what I mean. When River marries the Doctor at the end of season six, I really didn’t know how to feel about it. But with River back, as the Doctor’s wife? I LOVED her. It was weird how much I loved having her back. Especially the way the Doctor is with her. Ugh. So much emotions.

SO MUCH EMOTIONS.

This episode was a huge punch in the gut. a HUGE one. I knew that this was going to be Amy and Rory’s last episode. I knew that. I just didn’t think it was going to affect me that badly.

The Doctor, Amy and Rory are in New York City, 2012, reading in Central Park. Rory goes off to get coffee, comes in contact with a Weeping Angel and gets sent back in time. The Doctor realizes that he is written a book by Melody Malone a.k.a. River Song, outlining the events that are taking place and that will take place. They make their way to 1938, where Rory is transported to and find their way to the Winter Quay, the headquarters of the Angels.

Rory has to die. He has to. Because he just saw himself, eighty-something years old, and so he has to die. Unless there is a paradox. So he runs, he does what every other companion does, he runs. Until he reaches the top of the building and the FLIPPIN Statue of Liberty is chasing after him! And he does something that only Rory would do, only the last Centurion would do. He decides to throw himself off the top of the building, on the faith that it’ll create the paradox needed to get out of that building.

And all I could think was, oh god Rory is going to die! He’s going to die! And wait, what is Amy doing? She’s climbing up on the ledge with him. Oh no, they’re both jumping. They’re both going to die. The incredibly, impossible power that creates the paradox is their crazy insane love for each other. It was so sick and beautiful, I was about to lose it.

And then they all reappear at the Tardis, in 2012, they’re fine. It worked! But I knew, I knew in my heart that this was not how it was going to end. This is Doctor Who we’re talking about. Rose Tyler was trapped in an alternate reality, never to see her Doctor, the one she loved ever again. (As far as we know). Donna Noble loses all her memories of the Doctor; she’ll never remember the amazing thing she has seen and done. The regeneration of the 10th Doctor was the saddest thing in the world…he didn’t want to go! So I knew this couldn’t be it.

Then Rory say his gravestone, an angel appeared and Rory was gone, disappeared off to another time. They can’t go get him, its impossible, there’s no way. And Amy is staring at the Angel, one blink away from disappearing and going along with him. And you can see the Doctor is in serious despair, he’s begging for Amy not to go, he can’t lose her. The Doctor loves Amy; Amy is his best friend. This is when the tears started, in the corners of my eyes, as you just see the Doctor begging Amy not to go.

But of course she goes. Through it all, through all the adventures and danger and insanity, Amy loves Rory. She chooses Rory over the Doctor and she as turns away from the angel to say her final goodbye to the Doctor, she disappears and her name also appears on the gravestone. The Doctor gets one final message, one last goodbye from Amy in the afterword of the book by Melody Malone…saying goodbye, and that her and Rory love him, that they were happy together and to remind the Doctor to never be alone.

I turned to my boyfriend and LOST IT. I cried like a little baby. It was such a sad and bittersweet ending to the Ponds long run with the Doctor. And Matt Smith…Matt Smith shows that utter sadness at losing the two of them. He does an amazing job with that scene that I could feel it. All the emotions. All the feels!

Can I just pause for a quick moment to say how lucky I am to have a boyfriend who lets me cry, and comforts me when things happen to fictional characters that I love? He let me sob my eyes out after the last Harry Potter movie (all those deaths and the fact that it was over…I could barely handle it) and then last night, as I watched Amy and Rory die, he comforted me again. He’s amazing. Okay, moving on…

I thought it was a great way to end the fall season and a great way for Amy and Rory to go out. I felt like…even though it made me sad and it broke my heart, it was a devasting and beautiful way for them to go. Steven Moffat…you little rascal, you just know the perfect way to get a girl to cry.

Then they showed a nice little quick preview of the Christmas special, where Jenna-Louse Coleman will be making her debut as companion, and thats exciting. I can’t believe how long I have to wait until then! I’m going to miss Amy and Rory immensely but I can’t wait to see what the rest of series 7 has in store for us.

What did you all think of Angels Take Manhattan? Did you like it/dislike it? How hard did you cry when Amy and Rory were gone? As always, let me know in the comments.

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